Dear Jade,

I wish you were here. Or I wish I was back home.

Things were going really well! I was ready for the Halloween party and they were lending out free costumes, so I borrowed one. Thought I'd go as a psycho killer from a movie, like the one we watched when we watched Shane's apartment for him that time. The one that scared us both silly even though the blood was so fake.

I was having a good time, being silly and meeting people. The kind of stuff you should do when you don't know anybody at a party, right? And then I was in the Warp Spasm even though I hadn't fought ANYBODY since I got here. I nearly killed someone.

The scary thing besides the killing someone part was that it just happened. It was like a game, like just horsing around. But I remember picking him up by the throat and slamming him into a wall, over and over. And then his friend found us and she was going to shoot me and what if it hadn't been enough? It was a little tiny pistol!!

Jade, what if I'd killed them both?

They ended up getting the mask off of me and my head screwed itself back on and I realized what I'd almost done. The man nearly died. But he made it to the shop to get some medicine that fixed him up immediately. It was like magic. It took all our money to get (even what I earned working) but imagine if it had happened and I hadn't had it. What if I had killed them both?? I apologized a million times...

It's not fair, too. It's not fair that that hapened. That's cheating, isn't it?? Tricking me like that?

I don't like that something could just do that to my head. Nobody is here that knows how to bring me out of it and that wasn't normal or natural anyway!! I wish you were here. I miss you for other reasons too.


Anyway. I don't think he's mad at me. Nicholas. The fellow I nearly killed. I think he might be weird too. He found me up on the roof later and talked to me and put his hand on my hair like Da used to.

He said Meryl hit him with a van!! 🫨

So yeah. I think he might be different like us. I don't know about Meryl. I'll watch them a bit.

Love, Eithne

P.S. Not creepy watching! 😫

Dear Shane,

I hope everybody's doing well without me. I wish I could have brought some of you along. It's been a bit since I was the new girl again. But it's okay! I can make friends here. You don't have to worry about me.

I don't know how but my sword and bracelet are gone! They said I can 'order' them from home but it costs a ton of money!! >:C Which is why I started working first thing. You know I always charge head first at a problem. I've been working the last four days and finally went home this morning to sleep when I couldn't stay awake anymore.

There's no mail in or out of here so I know this wouldn't reach you even if I tried sending it. But it doesn't feel like anything to keep a diary. Who would I be writing it for? Not like I'd ever publish it! So I hope you don't mind that I'm using you as an excuse to clear my head.

Give my best to Jade and even grouchy Ravi I guess :P. And please take good care of Sheela even if he's a twat.

Your cousin,
Eithne